Tahu Tauhu

In one fine morning, after taking a fresh morning walk, I stopped by at this one uncle's little gerai, to buy some vegetable. And I keep looking for tauhu, white tauhu while the uncle is busy with other aunt. After 3 minutes, the uncle served me. He asked me what did I want. And... I tell him,

"Pak, tauhu ada gak?"

"Kangkung? Sebentar"

"Bukan pak, tauhu. Tauhu."

"Ya, kangkung kan"

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Speechless there. While keep finding the right word.

When I nearly said tofu, one aunt said

"Tahu ya?"

"Ha,, Iya, tahu."

What the.. It's the same, tauhu or tahu. Not differ so much. But tauhu and kangkung get to  manyyyyyyyyyyy difference!! 

Luckily that aunt helps me, if not, I just buy the kangkung la. 

My mistakes, almost three years living here, but still, I said tauhu instead of tahu. Mana la pakcik tu nak faham.

Have faith in Allah

Decision.

Never be easy to be made. Even to make a choice for myself is hard, to choose over a thing that involves many is way harder.

Too much feelings to be care of. Too much opinion to be considered.

Pick A and people will ask why. Put A back and take B. People still ask questions. Choose anything, the curiosity still there.

Choose to never make a last word, people tell that you are too dependent to others. Choose to make a final act, people will say you are heartless. 

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Yet, me still need to do that decision. Even I run miles away. Even I hide the real feeling. Even I need to hold the tears, like forever maybe. Maybe.

But thanks to The One and Only, Allah always available twenty-four-hours-seven-days-a-week without rest. Never tired and neglected pray from me. 

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Even I need to run far far away, never feel tired, because Allah is there.

Even I need to keep smiling unwillingly, never feel annoyed because Allah is there.

Even I feel like to give up on everything, never really do because Allah is there.

Even I feel like to cry and cry and cry all over the night, the tears are worth because I'm crying for forgiveness.

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And even I feel harder to make a decision, Allah always ease them for me, insya-Allah.

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Let people say anything they like. It's their rights, me never care much as long as I'm never hurt. But if me still getting hurt, I don't care much because I have faith in Allah, forever.

Talk unstoppable

Before you talk, listen. Before you act, think. Before you criticize, wait. Before you pray, forgive. Before you quit, try.

Sometimes, you need to stop yourself from TALK, TALK and TALK.

Don't Talk all the way the conversation you had, no matter with whom. Aren't you tired, working out your mouth continuously, unstop. Please. Just stop. It's not that I don't want to hear yours. 

But. Just. Stop.

Try and try and try to listen to others' words too. Maybe you don't realize they want to say something in that conversation too. Yes, you can't realize it. Why. Because you don't stop talking and thinking bout others.

Even the lecturer give some chance for their students to ask and give opinion, why not you.

Urgh.

Yeah, I really need to stop.

Keep words to pray for good.

Hurm....

Can't be more tired than today

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at least for now.

Wondering, how tired I am when being a doctor soon. Be strong!

Can't be like this.

Soul-mate

People said, a good thing should be announced to world, right? Still, I don't understand why they choose to keep silent from others. Are not we all be friends once we shake our hands? It is okay, no hard feeling. Because maybe some things be a secret for some reason, we don't know that right?

And she deserves him so well. Perfect match, insya-Allah. May Allah ease everything for them. And me, just sit tight, waiting for the inviting card.

Allah S.W.T berfirman, “Perempuan yang jahat untuk lelaki yang jahat dan lelaki yang jahat untuk perempuan yang jahat, perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik dan lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik.” (an-Nur':26)

Even i'm not one of her best friends, I always praying for her to have a really good soul-mate to live together until death parted them, and of course with Allah's will.


"Matters of death and soul-mates are in the hands of Allah." We just can pray for a good one. ^__^

Rindu Bayangan

Never let others know
Those feelings, they are mine
Keep being secret forever and ever
Even I need to die with them

A diamond I found
In a sea of sand
Keep shining and shining
With care and love

But going a little pale
Full of unspoken stories
Once trying to vomit
But again keep failing

"Kisah yang lalu takkan berulang lagi"

Unexpected Life

When life goes beyond our expectation, what should I do? 

Let it goes just like that forever or do a little self-makeover?

Do I need others to help me grow some strength or just be a lonely employee?

Is it necessary to have some little relaxation-fun or just focus for 1440 minutes on the main goal?

What should I feel at this point?

Should I be sad or happy or stress or scared or no feeling at all?

Physically and emotionally I don't want to continue this continuous failure, for damn serious.

Brainly, I don't know what to do anymore.

Is it just me feeling this way? Or do I have some companion?

Wanna go here again :)